LiL' MichaeL AngeLo

I want my LiL' kiddo to be safe all the time.. We make sure that medicines and hazardous stuff are way out of his reach.. small parts of his toys that he can easily swallow... batteries.. pointed objects.. We keep all those away..

While his Biggie cousin (Jason) was writing, LiL' Kiddo asked me to get him a pencil.. My intial reaction.. No way! "You might get hurt.." But the LiL' Kiddo still insisted on holding a pen and grabbing his Biggie Cousin's paper..

Alright.. Alright.. So, I gave LiL Kiddo the pencil.. Guess what?? He even positioned it as if he knows how to write! I was so amazed! My LiL kiddo @ 1 can hold a pencil! Imagine that..!

Okay... Okay..
So I tried to trick him.. I gave LiL' Kiddo a pencil that was unsharpened.. Guess what??? He was looking for the pointed edge and when he noticed that there was none.. He threw it! hahahhahahha! and asked mommy to give him another one..

Alright... So, I gave him another pencil.. This time sharpened.. When he got it, he positioned the pencil as if he would write.. havin' the pointed edge on the paper!!!

Smart Ass!!!

One time we went to Burgoo_gatewal mall (a cool resto..) They are using paper as table cloth.. (probably to make their resto unique and to save some bucks buying table cloth) hahahahah.. The waiter gave us some crayons to doodle while we are waiting for our food.. LiL' Kiddo grabbed the crayon first and doodled on the paper! wahhahaha!!!

I hope that LiL Kiddo would be like his Big Daddy who is very good in drawing!!! Hmmmm.. I might have a Michael Angelo in the making!

I am NOT..

After getting paranoid.. I already know that I am not really pregnant.. I have my period just today.. so this ended all my questions..

LiL' Kiddo is not yet a big bro..I think this just gives me more opportunity to spend more quality time with my LiL' Kiddo.. He is growing up fast and we don't know, he would probably have a LiL' sister/bro soon.. So, while he is still the only angel in the house, I would like to savor that moment..

Big Daddy and zhashaproudmomma should talk about family planning.. When do we want to have our 2nd child? Can we manage our finances once that great experience kicks in? Can we manage our time both for work and family?? How should we raise 'em??

Bein' PARENTS... TOUGH!!!

I would also need to consult our OB-GYNE for safe contraceptive options and pap-smear..

We all need to be healthy!

I maybe.. I maybe not..

For the past few days, I've been dealing with this intuition.. Or am just bein' paranaoid.. Argh!!! Whatever it is....

AM just feeling pregnant...

Oh yes, I am.. I don't know why this idea just blew out of my mind.. Had my last period January 2nd.. And come on.. I have not missed a period then?? Right?? and its way too early to do a pregnancy test.. I would possibly get an inaccurate result if done before January 30..

Lately, I feel that I am so moody, am having headaches, feeling dizzy, i want to vomit (eeewwww!!!), i hate some smell, I can't eat and i feel bloated! These were the exact same symptoms of my first pregnancy..

Alright, so since I am so paranoid thinking that I might be carrying my 2nd child, I even visited websites to research about pregnancy.. and even took an online quiz to know if icould possibly be pregnant..
http://pregnancy.about.com/cs/pregnancytests/a/aa011899.htm
Here is the test I took..
Q: Have you missed your period?
Answer: No

Q: Are your breasts sore?
Answer: No

Q: Are you more sleepy than usual?
Answer: Yes

Q: Are you feeling moody?
Answer: Yes

Q: Do you have an increase in cervical discharge?
Answer: No

Q: Have you missed more than one period?
Answer: No

Q: Do you feel movement in your lower abdomen?
Answer: Yes

Q: Are you having weird food cravings?
Answer: No

Q: Are you having more frequent headaches?
Answer: Yes

Q: Have you had any bloating?
Answer: Yes

Q: Have you outgrown your clothes?
Answer: No

Q: Have you had a positive pregnancy test?
Answer: No

RESULT: You answered 5 items out of 12 Yes. Your score is 42%. You might be pregnant, wait and take a test.

After taking the Quiz, I calculated my possible due date! (see how paranoid I am..)

Here is the result.. If I am pregnant...

Enter the first day of your last menstrual period.
Month: January
Day: 2
Year: 2007
Due Date: 10/9/2007
Conception: 1/16/2007
Pregnancy Test: 1/30/2007
1st Heartbeat: 2/13/2007
Quickening: 5/8/2007
Viability: 6/19/2007

I may be right , but I may also be wrong.. All I have to do is wait for January 30 to do my pregnancy test and visit my OB-GYNE..

If am pregnant... We have a new LiL Angel comin'...

Nothin' has changed..

Bein' married for almost two years is just awesome! I couldn't really ask for more.. Big Daddy is just my all!

I think it is great to reminisce the first day when I felt in love with my Big Daddy.. Oh wow! I just can't explain the feelings.. Yiheeee!!!

We smiled and that's how it all started.. He was just one ordinary guy.. But wait.. Suddenly, my heart was beating oh so-so fast...no.. no.. no.. He wasn't an ordinary guy. He was a very special guy even the first time we met.. I was strucked by somethin.. I didn't know what that was.. Okay.. Okay.. LOVE Struck me.. When we met.. I didn't know I was lookin' for love.. but good thing I got him!!!

Seven years of bein' steady.. (huh!) was no joke.. We've been through a lot.. Happy moments... Rough roads.. name it!
When we got married we promised to live together forever.. Build a family.. Share everything!

Days, months passed... Imperfections makes our marriage perfect! We laugh together, we've cry together.. We argue.. We get mad.. We have mishaps.. We have shortcomings..

BUT.. I just thought, isn't it nice to remember and feel exactly the same feeling I felt when I first fell in love with the MAN of Life.. The MAN of my Dreams.. My husband...

Oh wow! I still feel the same.. I love him exactly the same way I first fell in love with him... Nothin' has changed.. Hmmmmm... I just love him so dearly !!! Oh my Big Daddy!!!

Once in my LIFE...

ONCE IN MY LIFE.....
I thought I was too small..and people can just push me around..
I didn't know how to appreciate things.. I always complain..
I laughed at somebody else's mistake.. So immature!
I made wrong decisions.. and I suffered the consequences...
I cried... hard.. very hard..
I was hurt... but time healed my wounded heart..
I was alone.. I was with nobody.. Got no friends around..
I didn't listen.. and it didn't give me any good..
I was touched by an angel.. and I touched someone's life.. hmmm.. I am an angel then!

I walked fast.. Trying to escape.. Trying to rush things up!

I regret the stupid things i've done.. and i regret not doin' the things I should've done...

I felt so weak.. and didn't have the strength to get up..

I was fooled and I fooled somebody.. Let's call it quits..

I stumbled... but I regained my strength.. and stood up tall..

I longed for understanding, acceptance, approval and love..

I dreamed big... and am slowly turning them to reality..

I was a little girl.. innocent.. I was a nobody..

I was a victim of crab mentality.. people didn't like me to succeed.. but I worked hard!

I hated some people.. and I even hated myself..

I was underestimated.. I almost lost my confidence.. but I proved them wrong.. oh.. so-so wrong..

I was betrayed by people I trusted the most.. Damn it!

I was a questioned by others... But I stood up to what I know was right..
I needed somebody... to comfort me.. to understand me.. to accept me.. to believe in me.. to take care of me.. to love me..

Then my MAN came.. That's my BIG DADDY! He's my all!

I believed in miracle.. I always believe that miracles happen...

Then I got my LiL Kiddo.. He is the greatest miracle in my life...I miss being a child.. But I become one whenever I look at my LiL Kiddo's eyes..

I want to live free from pains, free from heartaches.. free from pressures, free from other people's judgement.. free from troubles.. BUT... wait a sec... these added flavour to my life.. These things made me stronger... These things made me to work harder! to value life..

We encounter things we don't like.. things that make our lives more difficult and complicated.. But just hang on.. and believe that these are just one of the things that happen ONCE in our LIVES.. No REPEAT...

Despite of all these... LIFE is BEAUTIFUL!

Keep my BOYS Healthy...

I woke up around 7:30am.. (pretty early).. Whew! Realizing that it is the start of the week.. got no Nanny.. have to take care of my LiL' Kiddo.. Big Daddy has an appointment.. and the house chores are all mine..! waaah! Challenging! Isn't it?
First, I prepared breakfast.. My LiL Kiddo and I walked around the neighborhood to buy some goodies to feed our hungry stomachs..ooopps.. That was a long walk!But as we got home, Big Daddy and LiL' Kiddo liked the food that I bought.. (hope I'll learn how to cook soon.. )

Big Daddy and I planned on sending LiL Kiddo to Grannies place (my mom and dad's house) MIL already got back to work and probably would be so tired if we'll have her take care LiL Kiddo.. Alryt.. so I packed.. whew!
It was past 4pm when we arrived at my mom and dad's place..
Big Daddy has been complaining headache since morning.. But i just ignored it.. Damn!

Way past 6pm.. As I was trying to get a nap since I'd be working late at night, Big Daddy woke me up complaining headache and numbness of his right arm..
My heart was beating so fast... as in really really fast.. This was the first time that Big Daddy complained of having numbness on his right arm... My dad drove us to a nearby hospital to have Big Daddy checked! The doctor checked him.. Poor BIg Daddy, blood pressure was high.. The nurse gave him a little medicine and placed it under his tongue..

Oh Gosh! This really made me so so afraid.. I thought he was experiencing something really serious.. Oh LORD spare him from that!!! Thank God Big Daddy's Blood Pressure stabilized at the normal level after the dose of medicine..
I just thought... Seein' my Big Daddy and LiL Kiddo lyin' in a hospital bed would surely bring me to pain and fear.. This just reminds me of praying to God to keep my boys healthy...
With our so busy days.. we tend to forget to thank the Lord for the blessings that he is showering us.. But whenever we are in need.. That's when we realize that HE is just right beside us.. Waiting..( human nature...)

Forgive me Lord.. and thanks for keeping my family healthy..

Big Daddy's Birthday!!!

Oh yes! It's Big Daddy's birthday! That calls for a party!! Yummy food! Friends and relatives dropping by our flat! A get together! Yipeeeeeeee!
I am so thankful to God that he blessed my hubby another year full of love and blessings.. The past year has been a great year. I texted him at excatly 12midnight...
Here's how the text message goes...
"Happy Birthday Daddy!" I want to be the first person to greet you on your very special day.. You are my one and only love, my soulmate, my true love... I want to share your happiness in celebrating your birthday..because you were born to love me.. I love you very very much! Mwah! Happy brithday!

I also bought a cake and put a little blue candle on it when we had lunch (early morning breakfast since we are on the night shift!) argh!.. He was so surprised!

Will post some pixies of hubby on my next entries..

I Will Be There.. I promise..

This song says what's inside my heart.. and this is for my Lil' Kiddo..
I WILL BE THERE...

Whenever you feel all alone
Whenever you feel there is no reason to go on..
When there is doubt in your heart
When there is no one in this world you can find who will give you support in everything you do
And who will believe that you will see things through

I will be there, I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder you can lean on
I'll be your friend you can depend on
I will be there

There are times when things go wrong
Yes there were times when you just feel you don't belong
And there are days when things don't go right
Yes there were days when you're not willing to fight
You will need someone who will tell you its okay
Someone who believes, believes in you all the way

I will be there, I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder you can lean on
I'll be your friend you can depend on
I will be there
I will be there, I'll be there
I'll be your shoulder you can lean on
I'll be your friend you can depend on
I will be there

Heart Breaking..

Time is ticking so fast.. He was just so tiny way back then.. But look at him now.. He can now stand on his own.. He can now walk without support.. He now understands simple thoughts... and he now starts to talk..

Yeah...He must be growing up so fast.. And look where is mom right now @ 1:57am... Mom is in the office.. She has to work.. She has to earn.. But where is Big Daddy?? He is also at work.. He has to earn some bucks too..

And where is Lil' Kiddo?? He is at home sleeping without mommy and Big Daddy beside him.. He is with his Grannies... Thank God! He has loving grannies who are always there in mom and dad's absence...

Whenever, I am leaving for work, and leaving my Lil' Kiddo with his grannies... This scenario really breaks my heart.. I just can't help it.. Tears will run down my eyes.. I hope Lil' Kiddo doesn't feel that mom and dad don't care.. Because we LOVE him very very very much!!! He would understand.. I know he would..

It's been a while..

Oh wow! It's been quite some time since I posted my last entry..Wheeee! Time indeed ticked so fast.. I mean really really fast.. Gosh! We're almost halfway over January 2007.. What have I accomplished so far??? What were my experiences the first half of January '07?? You??? what have you accomplished so far??

Here's my list...
> Started the year with a prayer.. That the Lord will bless me, my family, loved ones and friends..
> Spent the first week with my family.. (I was still on vacation leave!!)
> Got back to work January 4th..
> Submitted all documents/reports required in the office..
> Li'l kiddo was brought to the hospital due to severe cough and colds..
> Li'l kiddo was under medication for 2 weeks.. Waaaahhhh!! Poor li'l boy.. )+;
> Big Daddy's schedule makes me crazy!
> Arranged our room... It was really a mess! Clothes are everywhere! It made me feel so stressed! whew!

These are just couple of things I've done and experienced so far.. I am lookin' forward to more stuff the coming days.. weeks.. months..

I'll be more enthusiastic in creating my entries here in the blog.. also, i'll take time to learn new stuff here.. like interacting with other bloggers.. joinin' a group..(groups for moms, young professionals.. etc..) things like that.. hope somebody out there can help me out.. Thanks in advance!