Another year older...

I don't mind growing old..
so long as I have a beautiful family who gives me great reasons to smile and thank God that I'm alive!
I have the most precious gift ever.. my son, Job Mattheus.. he never fails to amaze and impress me with his stunts, tricks and wit!
I have a loving husband who understands my entire being.. who has been true to our vows for years now.. who is my number 1 fan.. who is my fortress.. my source of strength.. my man.. my all.. I love you Matthew!
I have real, loving friends who add color to my life and stick by me through the years..
I have detractors who give spice to my life and never fail to challenge my faith and capacity..
I have a great career which gives me great opportunity to grow..
I have everything that I need..
I have some bucks to spend for luxury and pleasure! whew!
I have a home where I'm the queen..
I have feet to run and walk.. and these feet keep me grounded.. humility.. humility...
I have eyes to see things.. so I can lead myself to a deeper understanding and realization.. though sometimes I get blinded by wrong perceptions, motives and beliefs..
I have strength to continue and press on towards my goals..
I have a heart which is filled with love not hatred, not pain nor envy..
I have serenity..
I have peace of mind that comes from God... From God alone..
I have freedom to do whatever I want.. to do what I think is right.. just and fair for myself and to others...
I have limitations.. Because I'm reminded that I'm not perfect.. and my imperfections make me a perfect human being!!
I have all the time in the world to live my life to the fullest.. bring out the best in me..to make up on all my mishaps.. to catch up on things I missed.. to look back and make my future brighter and happier..

I thank God for being so real.. He makes all things possible! He gives me nothin' but the best.. though at times i still complain.. hard headed woman!! waaahh!
I thank God that He gives me another year.. to grow older... to be better..

Indeed, it is a Happy Birthday!!!

Old Love

This free verse poem is for a great friend of mine.. who once fell in love.. but was never loved back.. She sure will find her one great true love...

Old Love... Old Love..

Old love.. t'was gone..
Old love.. nowhere to find..
Old love.. where are you now?
Old love.. he was never mine..
Old love.. broke my heart...
Old love.. I waited..
Old love.. you never got back..
Old love.. we gave each other promises..
Old love.. left broken promises..
Old love.. hurts...
Old love.. no time..
Old love.. we were afraid to fight for our love..
Old love.. wasn't the right time..
Old love.. t'was a struggle..
Old love.. was kept secret...
Old love.. you belong to someone else..
Old love.. you can't love me too..
Old love.. why not?!
Old love.. i can never be yours.. and you can never be mine...
Old love.. no more..
Old love.. t'was all gone...
Old love.. i once loved you... no more second chance....

My Valentine..

I call him my Own..
He is the man behind my every success..
He keeps me moving..
He is my shopping buddy..
I tend to be unreasonable at times and talk nonsense, yet he still listens..
He prepares great meal! He knows the kitchen more than I do!
He appreciates my entire being..
I can be myself... I need not to pretend to be somebody am not because he accepted me and love me as who I am and not who other people wanted me to be..
He makes me feel beautiful everyday, despite of bad hair days!
He understands and knows what's on my mind without me telling him.. hmmm...
He makes me smile after a long and very tiring day.
When I need a good laugh, he just have to fart! hahahhaha!
He turns my bad days to good ones by simply, rubbing my back and kissing my foreheard..
I need not to say what I want because he already knows it..
He turns ordinary days to special days because of LiL surprises he brings..
He makes me see the other side of things.. and leads me to a great realization..

Love is having him..
Love is living with him.. spending my life with him..
Love is holding his hands..
Love is bein' with the Man of my Life.. The father of my most precious possesion..
My Hero.. My Big Daddy!!!

Its always good to celebrate Valentine's Day with the Man to whom I said "I Do.."
I Love you My Valentine!!!

My FamiLiA

My family...

They are the reason why I live a very happy life!

They are my joy!

They are the reason why I am so blessed!

They keep me moving.. They are the reason why I work hard..

They are behind my every success..
They lift me up whenever I fall and stumble..

They make me stronger everyday..

They make my days brighter!

They turn my bad days to good ones!

They make me cry because of happiness..

They wipe off the sadness that this life brings..

They make me sing happy songs!

They make me dance like a dance guru! hahahhah!

They make our LiL house a castle! and I am the queen!

They kick out the stress and pressure brought about by my damn career! wahehhe!

They make me feel I am the prettiest woman in the world! Thanks Mr. Universe! (my Big Daddy!)

They rock! They rock my world! Great job LiL Kiddo!

They are my number 1 fan!

My family.. makes me complete...

Nothin' has changed..

Bein' married for almost two years is just awesome! I couldn't really ask for more.. Big Daddy is just my all!

I think it is great to reminisce the first day when I felt in love with my Big Daddy.. Oh wow! I just can't explain the feelings.. Yiheeee!!!

We smiled and that's how it all started.. He was just one ordinary guy.. But wait.. Suddenly, my heart was beating oh so-so fast...no.. no.. no.. He wasn't an ordinary guy. He was a very special guy even the first time we met.. I was strucked by somethin.. I didn't know what that was.. Okay.. Okay.. LOVE Struck me.. When we met.. I didn't know I was lookin' for love.. but good thing I got him!!!

Seven years of bein' steady.. (huh!) was no joke.. We've been through a lot.. Happy moments... Rough roads.. name it!
When we got married we promised to live together forever.. Build a family.. Share everything!

Days, months passed... Imperfections makes our marriage perfect! We laugh together, we've cry together.. We argue.. We get mad.. We have mishaps.. We have shortcomings..

BUT.. I just thought, isn't it nice to remember and feel exactly the same feeling I felt when I first fell in love with the MAN of Life.. The MAN of my Dreams.. My husband...

Oh wow! I still feel the same.. I love him exactly the same way I first fell in love with him... Nothin' has changed.. Hmmmmm... I just love him so dearly !!! Oh my Big Daddy!!!

Once in my LIFE...

ONCE IN MY LIFE.....
I thought I was too small..and people can just push me around..
I didn't know how to appreciate things.. I always complain..
I laughed at somebody else's mistake.. So immature!
I made wrong decisions.. and I suffered the consequences...
I cried... hard.. very hard..
I was hurt... but time healed my wounded heart..
I was alone.. I was with nobody.. Got no friends around..
I didn't listen.. and it didn't give me any good..
I was touched by an angel.. and I touched someone's life.. hmmm.. I am an angel then!

I walked fast.. Trying to escape.. Trying to rush things up!

I regret the stupid things i've done.. and i regret not doin' the things I should've done...

I felt so weak.. and didn't have the strength to get up..

I was fooled and I fooled somebody.. Let's call it quits..

I stumbled... but I regained my strength.. and stood up tall..

I longed for understanding, acceptance, approval and love..

I dreamed big... and am slowly turning them to reality..

I was a little girl.. innocent.. I was a nobody..

I was a victim of crab mentality.. people didn't like me to succeed.. but I worked hard!

I hated some people.. and I even hated myself..

I was underestimated.. I almost lost my confidence.. but I proved them wrong.. oh.. so-so wrong..

I was betrayed by people I trusted the most.. Damn it!

I was a questioned by others... But I stood up to what I know was right..
I needed somebody... to comfort me.. to understand me.. to accept me.. to believe in me.. to take care of me.. to love me..

Then my MAN came.. That's my BIG DADDY! He's my all!

I believed in miracle.. I always believe that miracles happen...

Then I got my LiL Kiddo.. He is the greatest miracle in my life...I miss being a child.. But I become one whenever I look at my LiL Kiddo's eyes..

I want to live free from pains, free from heartaches.. free from pressures, free from other people's judgement.. free from troubles.. BUT... wait a sec... these added flavour to my life.. These things made me stronger... These things made me to work harder! to value life..

We encounter things we don't like.. things that make our lives more difficult and complicated.. But just hang on.. and believe that these are just one of the things that happen ONCE in our LIVES.. No REPEAT...

Despite of all these... LIFE is BEAUTIFUL!