Lil excited and a bit sad...

Come Friday, I'll be flyin' to the US for business trip and vacation..
I have not packed my things yet.. I dunno how to start.. or am probably trying to delay it.. because there are things holding me back.. yeah.. there really are.. some things.. and two boys..

This opportunity makes me excited.. This is ain't my first time to travel outside the Philippines but I guess US is one of the best places to see.. I've heard so many things about the country.. I have worked and is still working for an american portfolio.. I have american friends.. I have dealt with so many americans for years now.. And its time for me to see the real thing.. I mean, to see their inside world.. How does America smell?? ......

I'll be travelling without my two boys.. and this makes me a lil sad and lonely.. I have never been away from 'em even for a day or two..

I'll just be in the US for a month.. But it seems to me that it'll be a long time.. I'll miss our weekends together.. I'll miss our car rides.. I'll miss holding my boys' hands.. I'll miss kissing 'em.. I'll miss our bonding moments.. I'll miss lookin' at 'em while they are both sleeping.. I'll miss the Boys I love!
As I travel, may the Lord hold the planes that I'll be riding.. May He keep me safe and secure.. And while I'm away, may He watch over my two boys and keep us all safe!

have you been away from home??

Did you get a lil excited travelling and a bit sad and lonely knowing you will leave someone for quite a long time??
Tell me about it...

Another year older...

I don't mind growing old..
so long as I have a beautiful family who gives me great reasons to smile and thank God that I'm alive!
I have the most precious gift ever.. my son, Job Mattheus.. he never fails to amaze and impress me with his stunts, tricks and wit!
I have a loving husband who understands my entire being.. who has been true to our vows for years now.. who is my number 1 fan.. who is my fortress.. my source of strength.. my man.. my all.. I love you Matthew!
I have real, loving friends who add color to my life and stick by me through the years..
I have detractors who give spice to my life and never fail to challenge my faith and capacity..
I have a great career which gives me great opportunity to grow..
I have everything that I need..
I have some bucks to spend for luxury and pleasure! whew!
I have a home where I'm the queen..
I have feet to run and walk.. and these feet keep me grounded.. humility.. humility...
I have eyes to see things.. so I can lead myself to a deeper understanding and realization.. though sometimes I get blinded by wrong perceptions, motives and beliefs..
I have strength to continue and press on towards my goals..
I have a heart which is filled with love not hatred, not pain nor envy..
I have serenity..
I have peace of mind that comes from God... From God alone..
I have freedom to do whatever I want.. to do what I think is right.. just and fair for myself and to others...
I have limitations.. Because I'm reminded that I'm not perfect.. and my imperfections make me a perfect human being!!
I have all the time in the world to live my life to the fullest.. bring out the best in me..to make up on all my mishaps.. to catch up on things I missed.. to look back and make my future brighter and happier..

I thank God for being so real.. He makes all things possible! He gives me nothin' but the best.. though at times i still complain.. hard headed woman!! waaahh!
I thank God that He gives me another year.. to grow older... to be better..

Indeed, it is a Happy Birthday!!!